It has been 7 months since my dad has passed away, and it seems only natural that life has gone on without him. There is this victimized feeling, that leaves you breathless at times. Then there are glorious moments that are shared between friends and family, that make you remember that life really goes on. At 27 you start to question your whole life, your whole existence, and luckily for me I was able to sit down with a relic from the past… All connected through my dad.
Sometimes, when I am out and about, I look around the room and realize that I am the only Asian. For some reason I have decided to surround myself with Latinos, and latin culture, but more specifically gay latino culture. Lets be real, I love me those latinos. But, it does bother me that sometimes when I look around a room, a club, a restaurant there is not one person who looks like me. This is followed by the total opposite, being in a room full of Asians. Then I am just uncomfortable, and this is brought me to one thing: Maybe it is time to start acting more Asian…
When I was younger my parents sent me to Korean school in OC, and in that, I had met some amazing people. At my dad’s memorial I ran into one of the teachers, who I hadn’t seen in maybe 10+ years. I didn’t think anything of it. But recently I was going through all of the sympathy cards that were sent, and I saw that teacher’s card. My mom had saved the envelopes, and there was his address. Ironically, he lives down the street from me. Thus, my yellowness surfaced. Like a stalker, I decided to drive over. His daughter answered the door and had no clue who I was. As I was about to leave, he pulled up, and laughed. This turned into a very long 3 hour conversation about racial identity, sexuality, and the rebirth of Korean-Adoptees.
This has lead me to believe that maybe, it is time for me to start looking for my birth parents? I am not exactly sure because I feel like the outcome is going to be a gamble, but you have to take risks in life, right? Time to find out my cultural beginnings… So we begin…
#FOLLOWTHATGAYSIAN 