The Boy in the Plastic Bubble…

self portrait. November 20, 2012
As a child, I grew up in a plastic bubble… 
My parents raised me in a conservative christian home where
everything was monitored, filtered and influenced by religion.

This is not a religious bash…

In most ways, we as children have no power on what we are influenced with…
But, when life changes and we experience things our parents’ wouldn’t approve of
we then are able to start defining ourselves as adults.

As an adult, I have made my mistakes and I have learned a few lessons.
There are some mistakes I regret, some mistakes that were fun.
There were the mistakes that led to great creative inspiration…and there 
were mistakes that I loved.

Regardless, they were my mistakes.

As an adult my parents and I don’t see eye to eye… on well… almost anything.
I have come to accept that.

Now, I am my own person living my own life
my relationship with my parents is… minimal.

If I could change that I would… but they still live in their bubble,
and that will never change. I have seen it now with my sister.

What is your bubble like? How limiting is it?

My bubble? It is the filter of fashion, beauty, art and life.
My bubble lets anyone in and out as I love to experience new things, new people, new places.
Though, when it comes to my personal belief system… 
Have I become like my parents, and won’t change?
Am I set in my ways in my belief system?

maybe. maybe not. I am still learning,
still experiencing and still deciding what I like in my bubble.

Deep in thought… kinda

Have you ever wondered what your life would be like at 25?
Well, here I am at 25.
 I am definitely not where I thought I would, but in some ways that is a good thing, I think.
I never thought I would an editor.
I never thought I would be running Social Culture.
I didn’t know I was going to have a blog.
I never would have thought that I would be living in California…
In some act of fate though, here I am.
I am working full time as a fashion editor, and I am loving it.
So I don’t have a husband or kids, and I am far from a stay at home “wife”
And that is okay, I think.
But what if I still want that?
When will I get to have everything?
It is in these moments when I wonder what it would be like if I had a two year old in my life. What it would be like if I was still living on the east coast?

the YELLOW factor…

the YELLOW factor …
This is kind of a very touchy subject but I needed to address it, as it has been on my mind.

Like most single gays I spend time on websites, apps for iPhone and other forms of social media looking to meet other gay men. It has come to my attention that in the area that I live in race as is the most important thing, so much so that it even determines friendships.

I understand the whole difference of masculine and feminine in friendships… But race? This I don’t understand.

part deux … 

My best friend recently said that the only reason why I stay out here, or the only reason why I go out to local bars is that I am the only Asian- he then followed by saying this is why I get all these guys… Only because they like asians. That was kind of offensive, but none the less… Is it true?

This was then followed by him saying that only attractive men hit on me, and that I only am seen with attractive men.
So, in my mind I feel like I am being racially profiled, while my best friend sees it as me landing every hot guy I want because I am Asian…

This was then followed by examining past relationships, hook ups and men I talked to…

Here is what I have found in common:
 Most of the men I have been in relationships are always attractive and have facial hair. They are always masculine, successful, and charming. They always are in some ways in the arts or admire/support the arts. 

Now most of the men I hook up with : 4/5 are latino. 3/5 have a six pack. 1/2 i end up going on a date with.

The men I pursue…

1. attractive. Being attractive to me is someone who is charming and respectable. It necessarily isn’t about looks, or body type. It is something about who they are as an individual.
2. smart. Being smart doesn’t mean having a Phd or masters degree. It just means I can hold conversation with someone on almost any subject, and they will have a retort of some sorts. This is one of the biggest turn ons.
3. successful. Success is in the eye of the beholder. It’s not about money, it isn’t about their position in life. It is about being passionate about life, being passionate about a career, and most of all having goals for themselves. 
4. personality. Someone who intrigues me. Someone who makes me laugh. Someone who I can trust. Someone who isn’t afraid of commitment. Someone who is just willing to exist with you.

now 9/10 i’m rejected.
1/4 times we go on a first date that accumulates to nothing…

Finally part tres…
Gaysian in the City

My work. At my job being Asian benefits me, a lot. I don’t think because I am Asian I have it easier. In fact, I probably have it a lot harder since the influx of gaysians into the world of fashion. (I blame Alexander Wang, even though I am dying over his Fall 2012 Menswear.) There are plenty of gaysians in the world of fashion now… From designers to bloggers, to new fashion editors making it big… But, I sit here and I ask myself when will I get my break? I work hard, I am passionate about my work, and most of all I am dying to make a difference in the world. So. how does being Asian factor into this? I don’t know, but because of my mood it seems to be that way.

designers designers and designers pre fall 2012

Pre Fall 2012 Looks are pouring down the runways… and the gaysians are at it again…

derek lam pre fall 2012 is showing military sophisticates… Vintage with a twist, and I am loving it.
Military looks won’t be going out of style anytime soon…

Prabal Gurang pre fall 2012 collection was kind of underwhelming for his usual work… his last two even gowns made the girls look extremely broad, but this little number is delicate, yet the belt makes it commanding. I also am digging the texture on the dress.

Peter Som pre fall 2012 collection was all over the place, and I get that geometric prints are in but his were like these awful cheap looking rings and necklaces… I don’t know how I feel about his collection, but this dress I thought was kind of perfect, the draping and the lace, and the color choices were fantastic.

Not a gaysian but celine was my favorite look… well next to givenchy- but this look I thought was perfect, and I am totally going to wear it fall 2012… Look out kids…  The relaxed pant is a nice break between skinnies and harem, the oversized top and neckpiece is relaxed, and the gold bag with the contrast blue trim – right on… Hello comfort!!!

Once again Givenchy does no wrong. Caroline trentini for Gevenchy of course, the two make perfect sense, and the look is killer. Not many people can pull of this look on a daily basis, but who cares? The military/riding look is awesome, black is always flattering, and well it just looks super chic.